Today I did as I try to do each Sunday. I woke up early and dressed the kids and headed off to church. As I go throughout the week I start off feeling so good. I leave church taking the message of the day with me and I feel rejuvenated and refreshed. I feel like I have a sense of clarity and that what ever troubles that I am facing I can overcome. I always leave church feeling so full. It is the moment that I walk out the doors that life blows in my face and I realize that the full feeling was short lived.
It is funny how another person’s mood can affect yours so greatly. I can feel on top of the world and then have a family member knock me down to reality in a matter of seconds. Sure they don’t do it intentionally but anytime that you live with someone else you are affected by their emotions for sure. I came home from church today as usual feeling pretty good and positive about the week to come. It only took moments to go back to feeling defeated.
As I write this I am digging deep within myself to not be bothered by the situations that I am presented with. I am trying to ignore the moods of those around me. I am trying to forget the fact that I only have a short amount of time before I head off to work. I am digging as deep as I can within myself to stay positive when I want so badly to be negative.
Today’s message was all about the things that I know. It really came from the fact that there is so much that we do not know. You may or may not be a believer or a Christian or affiliated with any religion for that matter, but regardless, there are some things that none of us know. For example, we don’t know why bad things happen to good people sometimes. There really just isn’t an answer for it. There isn’t a reason. So within our own lives things may happen and we just don’t have the reason or the answer.
I’d say a lot has changed in my life over the past month. I’d say that I am hoping a lot more will change over the next month. I have no idea how I ended up on the winding road that I am on but I do know that at some point the road will straighten out and I will see my way to the next intersection. I know that as long as I have faith I will end up exactly where I belong.
As I write these words, I can feel my mood already going back to where it was when I first stepped out of church this morning. Through writing these words to you I am reminded of them myself. I know that storms do not last forever. I know that there will be a clearing in the clouds and I will be reminded of the promise when the rainbow is placed gloriously in the sky. I am faithful and hopeful that all will end up the way that it should, even though I don’t know exactly what that way is.
The trick is to remind myself of these words each day until next week. I hardly made it out the doors before I started doubting so how can I make it all week? It really is a challenge to focus your thoughts and heart on the things that keep you moving forward. It is so easy to take the lemons that life gives you and notice their sour taste and let it fester within. The real challenge is to take the lemons and add a little bit of water and sugar until you come up with lemonade.
The sweet and refreshing flavor of the lemonade is far better than the sourness of the lemon on its own. I can take my lemons and squint my face with each bitter taste or I can add a little something. I can frown and whine over working tonight and missing out on an evening with my family. I can let my heart hurt because I will not be there to put my kids in their beds tonight. I can cry over the memories and moments that I will miss all week long while I do work. Those are some of the lemons that I have. I can frown at all of them…..
Or I can mix in a little bit of water and sugar. I am not happy about working tonight but at least I had off all morning and afternoon to share with my family. I may not put my kids to bed tonight but I am confident that it is only a matter of time before I can enjoy being at home with them more often. I may not be around so much this week but I work so that we can afford things like the house that we live in. We are creating memories just by living in this home that makes us so happy and I am partly responsible for that. I can take today and this week and every lemon that I have and build myself up into something so much sweeter.
While I have only shared a fraction of the message that was spoken about today, I have reminded myself of much more. This letter may have been addressed to you, but it turns out that I was writing to myself. I will take this letter and try to replay it in my mind and in my heart all week long. I am going to use it to fuel myself to be positive and see things for the good instead of what is wrong. I wish you a wonderful week and I hope that you can make some time for lemonade also.